Stressed...Angry...Stressed...Angry...Disturbed...Disturbed. A bit confused on the state of my mind, but if the need be to define it in a word. I would say "Disturbed". Sooner or Later the work seems to start taking its toll and in a "constant" state of "instability", the mind seems to toss around. The competition seems to be with oneself, for the individual task of everyone seems to be piled up on one and one only. Still seem to be stuck bothering, preparing or rather working. The understanding seems to be scarce. An introspection reflect(s) lot many actions not to relieve but to freak out. Patience & Control seems to be the relieving but they aggravate the state further. They are not the cure either for they makes you stay in the same place. Days just comes as break to the further sufferings the mind has to go through.
But, hey this didn't mean I am down, the fight is still on, what if I'm out of breath and out of beats and definitely sooner or later out of my mind.
Digging into the archives of my memory I found a box. A box filled with all sorts of interesting memories, some made me happy and some sad. Right there in the corner of the box I found a puzzle. Yes, the puzzle everyone calls "Life". I felt a strong urge to pick it up and solve it. However, as on numerous earlier occasions I wasn't able to give it a right start. An urge to untangle my life, so strong that it hurts. A strange feeling that encompasses me, pulls me down and crushes me. An anxiety to free myself from the shackles. I know life is beautiful but those moments always seem to run ahead in time.
There are many things going around you, some disturbing and the others just happening. However, we fail to realize that each one of these event(s) is some how defining the course of our lives. Today, with some of these thoughts encircling my mind I am a little confused on what to do and what not. Just like today, I have spent many more days thinking the same over & over again.
With this realization that if we wish something truly from our heart not even the strongest of negative forces can stop it from coming true. I have started to yet again wish that I can some how go back in time and, change all that has gone wrong. But, then I fear that would doing this also re-define things that I never wish to change.So, in simple words and as on earlier occasion(s) leaving the thoughts of my past, I focus to concentrate on my future and ensure that I don't allow any thing under my control to go wrong.
